I've been reading "Forgotten God: Reversing our Tragic Neglect of the Holy Spirit" by Francis Chan. One question he brought up really challenged me...do I live desperate for the Holy Spirit in my life?
Am I desperate for Him every moment of every day, regardless of my circumstances, regardless of whether I feel I need Him? Do I awake each morning and go through my day completely dependent on God, and God alone?
It seems that each time in my life when there is a major change, I find myself coming back to the words of Moses in Exodus 33. God called Moses to lead His people to the promised land; and I just love their bold exchange in verses 33:15-18:
"Then Moses said to him, 'If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?' And the LORD said to Moses, 'I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name.' Then Moses said, 'Now show me your glory.'"
Moses was desperate for God. He knew his life depended on Him.
So in this new season I find myself meditating, "God, I am desperate for you." And, I pray this is my constant request from now forward, no matter if I am in a season of change or a season of stability. I boldly ask the Holy Spirit to reign in me, to work in me, to move through me, to do things in me and through me that I could never accomplish on my own, to make less of me and more of Him, to make the impossible possible in my life. I want to live a God-sized mission, God-sized dreams.
I am desperate for God.
Desperate. And I don't ever want to change.
Dearly loved, desperate,